Editing

A friend of mine plans to publish an online PDF magazine next January and he has asked me to contribute some of my photos. Since some of the other contributors are names that I admire in their respective fields, I'm more than happy to oblige. :)

Anyway, so I looked into my image archives, trying to find the best images from the 2 years span I've spent in this field that hopefully can represent what I mostly shoot. When I finally edit them down to about 20 images it becomes clear that even though they are images that I'm pretty proud of (at least for now), there isn't any real connection between the images... It makes me realize that up to this point I only think of my photographs as individual frames. I never gave much thought to my photos as a collective works. I never worked on a project, be it personal or commissioned. I just, well, go out there and shoot whatever interests me. Sure, everytime I shoot, I know what I want to show and convey in each of my frame. I know how I want it to look like, through a particular angle of view and composition. Of course it doesn't always work like I want but there's always at least a quick and flowing thought in my head before I press the shutter release. I don't just randomly point my camera at everything and snap away. But now I'm starting to wonder to myself... what do I want to tell with my photography as a whole?

....Damn I'm getting all serious about this. :o

Anyway, for the feature in the magazine I don't need to be bothered by the image arrangements as my friend will layout the whole thing... but I'm thinking of arranging my own body of works. With only 2 years of shooting perhaps it's not going to be any good but I suppose nothing wrong with trying. What I find very interesting when I try to do that is the sequencing... what photo should be put before or after the other. What new context could appear when an old photo is put beside a newer one.

Yesterday I just purchased one of Stern's Fotografie Portofolio series, number 39: Elliott Erwitt. I was just looking around at the bookstore, not planning to buy anything.. But then I saw the book, I remember I almost jumped out of excitement. I tell you, it's really really rare to see any kind of photobook here in the small city of Jogja... the only photography books you can find is pretty much basic photography tutorials. And there it was, a book with 62 pictures from Erwitt. There were some others from the series, but the only names I could recognize were Andre Kertesz, Martin Parr, and Erwitt. So yeah it was a tough call. But in the end I went with the one with a dog on the cover. ;) And it's great, looking at a photograph in a computer monitor is nothing compared to looking at a 50x30cm photograph on your own hands. Anyway, I'm straying from my point here. Here's 2 pages from the books that show what I meant in the last paragraph:


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The left one is made in 1976 while the right one is from 1955. They're made quite far apart in time. But they're interesting because, first of all, they're rather similar in composition, predominantly made up of vertical elements: one guy on the left, and a tall vertical element on his right side (statue on the left pic, guy with kid on the right pic). And the greatest kick is... The statue on the left pic looks as if it's staring at the guy with the cowboy hat, while he in turn looks as if he's watching the kid on the right pic! Two very different scenes brought together into a unity. These two picture wouldn't work together as good if the sequence was reversed.

Also reminds me of an interview of Joel Meyerowitz by Michael David Murphy, he also talks a bit about "using pictures as a kind of building block of a visual language", and not just a random order of things.

So anyway... that's all for today.

What? My own photos? Well here's some random ones.


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Hey, wait a minute, those are digitals! What about that fucked up CCD in the last entry? Well, uh, these are from a new *cough* D80.

Cheers. :)

The Horror

Don't ever, ever, attempt to clean your DSLR camera sensor when you're not feeling completely sober.

Sounds obvious enough, but apparently some idiot decided that he's smart enough to disregard that and did it while feeling sleepy. Look at what happened to that idiot's CCD sensor now:



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He might as well print it large, hang it on the living room wall, and call it a masterpiece abstract art!

Yes, I'm the idiot. I scratched the hot-mirror of my D50 while attempting to clean up some dust spots with a blower. Genius! Yesterday I called the service center and they said they're going to have to replace the whole CCD component... terrific. It still costs a lot despite the 50% discount they give. Aw what the hell, I'm selling it the instance I got it back from them. It has served me well for nearly 2 years and 30k+ shutter counts now... even surviving a couple of drops, one of which was on a rocky surface from about 1.5 meter high and yet it still worked properly afterwards, save for some minor scratches. Naga can testify to that. It is far from perfect and have many shortcomings, but that camera was sufficient enough for someone who just got into photography. I learned a lot with it.



But anyway, random snapshots from last November...


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Serious business.


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Even more serious business!


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Not so serious business. Mita and Sasha chatting through messenger though they're just a desk apart. I made this one bigger than usual, full view for you who speak Bahasa to see their silly talk. ;)


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Cats. :)

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Planning a detour.

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Fishies.

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Kinda like this. Wish Ucok's reflection would be bigger though.

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Those will most probably be the last photos from D50 in this blog. Aww.

Next are Neopan Presto 400 with FM2n and 50/1.8, not happy with how this roll turned out. Oh well.


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In other countries the empty bottles for this kind of photo would be of beers or the likes. But here all we got is soft drinks.

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Didn't turn out like I thought. Must have been too late by miliseconds, I remember they're having eye contact when I took this.

That would be all. So far nothing too interesting going on this month. Hopefully it would change for the better in the latter half of this month, with some online friends saying that they're coming to Jogja. If they don't cancel their plan, that is.

Bittersweet

So, that pain I've been expecting for the last 3 months finally comes. Though I knew it would obviously come sooner and later (because I deliberately made it happen myself), and I've been preparing myself to face it, it still hurts. What really sucks about this kind of pain is, no matter how much you get it, you still can't get used to it. Or perhaps I'm just not strong enough. But the different thing now is... I don't feel that depressed again like usual. I'm actually glad I get the pain. I feel relieved. Relieved that now I don't need to have that ridiculous curiosity and suspicion about them again. And it seems I handled it better than I thought. Last night I called my sis and told her all about it and she told me that from they way I spoke, I sounded okay. Perhaps I've grown up a bit? Who knows.

In any case, I hope everything will work out for them in the end. Because I want to see them happy. I really do. Well, actually I already did. And it's beautiful. Oh heartbreaking, but still, beautiful. As this entry title suggests, it makes me both sad and happy. It's just... I want to see them sharing that happiness with us too. Cause I don't think it's something that needs to be kept to themselves. Perhaps I'm asking too much. After all, it's their business. But alas, I'm entitled to my own opinion.

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Anyway.


These photos have nothing to do at all with what I wrote above. Just a few things I snapped a couple of days ago.




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See you all later, hopefully in a better mood. :) Well, not that there's anything wrong with the one I'm having now. Heh, it's kinda funny when I think about it. I always love a touch of irony in a photograph. You know, like Erwitt-esque stuff. And this bittersweet feeling I'm having now... there's an irony in it too. How ironic. Ha.

Presto 400

Sorry for that last bullshit post, it's deleted. I was frustrated over some matters... relationships with people in general, what I've done in my 22 years of living... won't attempt to get into details as it would only lead to yet another emo post and this blog is already bad enough without it.

Just to keep my promise earlier here are the rest of the photos from the Solo trip plus some other random photos. All are Neopan Presto 400 taken with FM2 and 50/1.4.



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And that's all from the trip.


Next are various snaps from the rest of the roll.

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Ara, who will be graduated today (congrats!) and just recently got a D40 as a birthday present. I'd suspect she'll be a happy snapper soon. And yes the focus in this is shite. So is the focus in lots of other frames in this entry.


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*emo*



Some street snaps from around Gadjah Mada:


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And more familiar faces from architecture campus.

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Metty, in a very... uh, Metty-ish pose, I suppose. Hey that rhymes.

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Intan who is now a 9-to-5 person.

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Mita and Sasha.

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Not the most flattering light, but I like it. Perhaps the expression, didn't know she had this kind of smile.

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And the all charming Gem to end this entry. Oh and look at that, a proper focus! Gripping.