Bittersweet

So, that pain I've been expecting for the last 3 months finally comes. Though I knew it would obviously come sooner and later (because I deliberately made it happen myself), and I've been preparing myself to face it, it still hurts. What really sucks about this kind of pain is, no matter how much you get it, you still can't get used to it. Or perhaps I'm just not strong enough. But the different thing now is... I don't feel that depressed again like usual. I'm actually glad I get the pain. I feel relieved. Relieved that now I don't need to have that ridiculous curiosity and suspicion about them again. And it seems I handled it better than I thought. Last night I called my sis and told her all about it and she told me that from they way I spoke, I sounded okay. Perhaps I've grown up a bit? Who knows.

In any case, I hope everything will work out for them in the end. Because I want to see them happy. I really do. Well, actually I already did. And it's beautiful. Oh heartbreaking, but still, beautiful. As this entry title suggests, it makes me both sad and happy. It's just... I want to see them sharing that happiness with us too. Cause I don't think it's something that needs to be kept to themselves. Perhaps I'm asking too much. After all, it's their business. But alas, I'm entitled to my own opinion.

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Anyway.


These photos have nothing to do at all with what I wrote above. Just a few things I snapped a couple of days ago.






















See you all later, hopefully in a better mood. :) Well, not that there's anything wrong with the one I'm having now. Heh, it's kinda funny when I think about it. I always love a touch of irony in a photograph. You know, like Erwitt-esque stuff. And this bittersweet feeling I'm having now... there's an irony in it too. How ironic. Ha.