So, that pain I've been expecting for the last 3 months finally comes. Though I knew it would obviously come sooner and later (because I deliberately made it happen myself), and I've been preparing myself to face it, it still hurts. What really sucks about this kind of pain is, no matter how much you get it, you still can't get used to it. Or perhaps I'm just not strong enough. But the different thing now is... I don't feel that depressed again like usual. I'm actually glad I get the pain. I feel relieved. Relieved that now I don't need to have that ridiculous curiosity and suspicion about them again. And it seems I handled it better than I thought. Last night I called my sis and told her all about it and she told me that from they way I spoke, I sounded okay. Perhaps I've grown up a bit? Who knows.
In any case, I hope everything will work out for them in the end. Because I want to see them happy. I really do. Well, actually I already did. And it's beautiful. Oh heartbreaking, but still, beautiful. As this entry title suggests, it makes me both sad and happy. It's just... I want to see them sharing that happiness with us too. Cause I don't think it's something that needs to be kept to themselves. Perhaps I'm asking too much. After all, it's their business. But alas, I'm entitled to my own opinion.
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Anyway.
These photos have nothing to do at all with what I wrote above. Just a few things I snapped a couple of days ago.
See you all later, hopefully in a better mood. :) Well, not that there's anything wrong with the one I'm having now. Heh, it's kinda funny when I think about it. I always love a touch of irony in a photograph. You know, like Erwitt-esque stuff. And this bittersweet feeling I'm having now... there's an irony in it too. How ironic. Ha.
I originally wanted to post about forty something photos in this one entry but I suppose it'll be a bit too long so I'm gonna split it in two parts.
These ones are all from a roll of Neopan Acros 100, taken with FM2 and 50/1.4.
Gayuh with a cat. Or, the way he chooses to see it, "with a pussy on his head". As you can see the cat isn't exactly happy being there. What a nifty way to start.
The rest of the roll was from when I went with Citishot.
You know what, I'm kinda lazy to write anything about these photos now... besides, I'm dead tired too. So just enjoy them. And please do leave comments, ask question, or whatever it is that you have in mind about these photos. Now Blogger's nice enough to send us email whenever there's new comment after we leave one in a particular entry, if you wish to do so... so you'll know if I respond back to your comments. :)
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On a completely unrelated subject...
This afternoon I sat in one place for almost an hour I think, just enjoying the heavy rain. Hearing the raindrops hitting the roof, leaves, and ground. Seeing them making continuing vertical lines as they fall from the roof. Watching as the water splashes on the ground making repetitive rhythmical patterns. Feeling the soft vapors touching your skin. It was bliss.
Of course, that's before you're starting to feel the cold, hours later. Like now. So I gotta go to bed now, see y'all later on the next part.
Cute, eh?
It's a Lomo Oktomat... or at least the inside of it. Borrowed it from Sam, he got it as a present but almost never used it so a couple of days ago he offered me to try it out, which I happily accepted. He warned me though, that a friend of his once ripped his film when he was trying to roll it up while using this camera. Ah, just a silly mistake, I thought. Boy was I wrong. Because when the camera is made this silly, all silly mistakes are bound to be common occurrences. And guess what... I ripped my film too. :|
And not only that, I found out that out of the 8 shutters this thing have, only the top 4 were working. So even if I had been able to take out the film, it would have been essentially a half-frame film anyway... not exactly what I was hoping to see, so I contacted Sam and asked him if he would let me disassemble *gasps* the camera to find out what's wrong. He gave the green light so I did it. I mean, what could possibly go wrong with disassembling a plastic toy camera, right? RIGHT? Well, the mechanisms inside weren't as simple as I thought. Almost broke the advance lever spring, nearly lost a gear... (and I find it amusing to see all those little plastic gears)
But eventually I managed to spot where the problem was. See, if you push the shutter release, there's this mechanism that will trigger the upper 4 shutters. That mechanism will in turn push this little lever that's connected to another lever in the lower part of the camera that will move another mechanism that trigger the lower 4 shutters. ....Gee, I make it sounds more complicated than it really is. But anyway, there's a problem in the first mechanism... I think the spring is a bit too loose so it won't push the lever enough to move the second mechanism. Here are pictures that might explain it a little bit better.
As of now I'm still not sure how I'm supposed to fix it. Tried to put something between the lower lever and the hook piece so it could move even with a little nudge but it just makes it stop completely. Eeergh.
Anyway I've scanned the film photos from the trip with Citishot which was almost 3 weeks ago (heh, finally) along with some other random pictures... Gonna post them tomorrow. Later all!
